Purity and Identity



Last month I got a chance to speak about Purity and Identity to our student leaders and while i have posted on how I came about the message which can be found on this link, I actually forgot to post the message of which I have promised on my blog. Last week one bold student reminded me of my promise and I’m really grateful she did- thank you Eunice Capili.

One of the biggest challenge for a woman for all ages is finding her true identity. Its as if the moment we are born to this world, we also are thrown on a quest to find out: Am I beautiful? Am I loved? Will People accept me for who I am? and the quest continues until the day we close our eyes.

But an ever greater struggle is knowing the Truth about who we are and not having the capacity to believe or utterly rejecting it because “its too good to be true” or “its too impossible to attain or live out”.

Such goes on the dilemma of knowing the absolute truth about us and not fully understanding the depth of Who said it about us:

“But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light. Once you had no identity as a people; now you are God’s people.” Peter 2:9-10

CHOSEN. ROYAL. HOLY – They all sound so sacred, beautiful and pure that when we looked at who we are, we would never associate it with any of those words. That’s why I’m so much more in awe that God was the one giving it, letting us know: “Hey beautiful, this is who you are!”

Purity is not a shackle of do’s and don’ts we put on.                                 Purity is our God-given identity to live out.

CHOSEN ROYAL HOLY that’s you and me!

We do not earn nor deserve it.                                                                          Our only contribution to it is to believe and live it out.                            Can you see God’s kindness and love in all of this?

God has given us an identity.                                                                                                   He made sure we wont forget and has written everything about it in His word.       He sealed everything and put the stamp of Jesus blood.                                               Did you received this message about you?

I love this Dove beauty portraying us at our finest in forgetting who we are: When did you stop thinking you are beautiful?

When did you stop believing you are pure?

To be continued….


Better Together: Sharing Testimonies and Covenant Friends

The first Wednesday of the month is something I always look forward to. Monthly we have our Every Nation Philippines Meeting and all our campus missionaries Metro Manila gets to reconnect and see each other -the classic extrovert me is just super happy to see so many people.

But these women are some of those on top of my list of people to spend time with, why? because we have been sharing lives the past few years and we have grown better  just from sharing our pain together, our laughters together, life’s challenges and also its victory. We intentionally built relationships with each other and today we get to enjoy its fruit thru teaching and coaching one another and simply being covenant friends.

Every meeting was unique , but if there’s always one thing consistent with our meeting we never go home without bringing a peace of each other ‘s victory and powerful testimonies. Today I got to hear these stories of personal and ministry answered prayers from these women of faith:

  • a dream condo that is rented out at a super cheap rate:                           Renting a cheap condo in Metro Manila at the place nearest your work is a piece of heaven on earth if you know how traffic is in Manila. Finding a cheap one is almost close to impossible, so to have a couple personally approach you and say: we meant to buy this house and rent it out for business, but God is challenging us to partner with you thru this and rent in out at the cheapest possible rate. Now that’s close to impossible and you know its only God’s hand and favor working and did I say its fully-furnished as well? Keep on believing God for your dream house at an impossible price.                                                                                                                                                          
  • the joy of biking and moving on                                                                         A lot of students think that their campus missionaries are like super men and women, how we wish we really are like that and that we don’t get hurt, stumble or fall. But the reality of life is real and challenges are a constant reminder of how much we all live under the grace of God’s goodness. I love the fact that no matter how personal our story sometimes gets these women are never lacking in humility to share their vulnerabilities, to share their stories, to ask for prayers and to enjoy the comfort of spiritual family and love the freedom accountability brings.                                                                                   
  • the power of being a blessing to an establishment                                      With all the counselling and one on one discipleships we get to do every day, we cant help but sometimes really based our “office” on a fast food chain nearest the campus we are ministering to. But this campus minister took it to the next level when she started praying for that establishment, believing God that she’ll get to share our vision of reaching students to the owner. Lo and behold, she got to do that and beyond, she got so much favor that they are willing to rent out their function room for free so that a discipleship group could meet their once a week and pray for the campus nearby. Truly we serve a good of unending faithfulness and surprises, don’t be afraid to believe for the impossible.                                                                                          
  • the joy of celebrating new seasons and existing ones                            Whether you are currently super challenged in your transition or enjoying a new season, nothing beats celebrating and sharing its joy and pain to a  group of covenant friends-someone who have seen how you started, people that walk with you in this journey, the same people who’ll be celebrating with you or comforting you in succeeding and trying.                                                                                                                                             I guess this is one of most important aspect of this constantly meeting together, we learn about commitment to a person’s growth, we challenge each other to believe for greater things, we celebrate the diversity of each one’s strength and wintogether as they fulfil their calling. We open our lives to previous “strangers”, we intentionally build trust and ended up being friends. We share endless stories of God’s faithfulness and endless lessons from His word and are in a constant cycle of discipling others and discipling one another- Indeed we are better together.

ang puso at ang kumunoy!

These past few days were a consistent buzz of women in a hurting relationship:
·       From a friend who choose a rebound boyfriend, the other one broke her heart
·      To students blackmailing their ex-bfs to come back or they will commit suicide
·      To wives not being led by their husbands
·      To students being stuck in a lesbian relationship, even whey have a way out
·      To women giving away their virginity to a man who is manipulative and non-committed

My heart goes out to them.

Truth be told, it is way too easy to judge and correct their bad decisions and you will remain to be right. We can go about hearing them out with great sincerity but at the back of our minds we’ve already made out a scheme of how to lecture them and teach them the easiest way out. Those things are quite easy and I admit I have chosen that route a lot of times.

But an even greater truth is that my heart is no way greater than the ones they have. Given their unloving environment, a whole bunch of insecurities and hurts, add up deeply embedded lies from the enemy and I might find myself as well in those situations or might even do worse. My heart is sinful just like theirs and this remains to be a timeless truth:

The heart is deceitful above all things 
and beyond cure. Jeremiah 17:9
Changing our situation comes first with the acknowledgment that <insert your name here> heart is deceitful and beyond cure. In tagalog, yung heart mo alam ng mahuhulog sa kumunoy, tumalon pa rin at nagtataka kung bakit sya nalunod, oo ganun kabobo ang heart natin, walang exempted dito.
Amidst the warning, we enjoy choosing to move towards danger until its too late
That’s the truth and it hurts but unless we convince ourselves that it’s the only truth then we will never find ourselves on the road to recovery, hindi tayo mare-rehab.
I am fully convince of that truth and anytime I would choose to backslide from that conviction God has made sure to surround me with more than a hundred friends who will get on my face and remind me of that (Salamat sa lahat ng gumagawa nito sa ken-i am forever grateful) plus the Holy Spirit’s never ending conviction.
I DON’T TRUST MY HEART and by God’s grace I hope I never will.
I know my heart is capable of selling me out, kaya ng puso kong:
a.    mamigay ng free hugs and kisses
b.    maging devoted for life
c.    maging martyr
d.    ipamigay pati ang kaluluwa ko
e.    ibenta ang buo kong kinabukasan
f.     ibigay ang lahat-lahat

   for the price of what:
·      a daily dose of affirmation, someone who will simply say how beautiful I am
·      a man who will listen, whose willing to give his shoulders to cry on
·      my dream guy-my real life Robin Padilla
·      for companionship, so that you wont feel alone
·      for pressure, dahil lahat ng tao sa paligid ko in a relationship
·      for the that feeling of being greatly pursued
·      for the attention and the gifts
·      for acceptance and “love”
for the things my family did not give me
for all the things my dad did not show
    other hearts would even give in to less
·      for an I love you text or kahit sa smiley man lang
·      for a great dinner
·      for a convenient mode of transportation
·      para sa 1 dosenang roses or sampaguitang galing sa simbahan 
·      and a never ending list of the wrong definition of love
Ladies don’t trust your heart, ihuhulog ka nyan sa kumunoy!
Surround yourself with Godly women friends na willing kang hukayin sa kumunoy kahit ilang beses ka ng nahulog dun. Be humble, ask for accountability, live in the light not a double life. Make it a habit to confess your tendencies-your dreams, your desires, your emotions to a trusted matured women who fears God. You will never go wrong if you don’t live your life alone and isolated from Godly people.
I HAVE GIVEN UP MY HEART and im confident He will keep it forever.
16 years ago, lahat na yata ng pwede maling talunan, tinalunan na ng puso ko-kumunoy, balon, manhole, bobo yan ang identity ng puso ko noon. I got tired eventually, syempre yung heart ko sugatan, gusgusin, dead by all standards. God had mercy on me, alam ko matagal na nya kong tinatawag, antigas lang ng puso ko. CPR moment, God revived my heart, gave me hope, redefined my heart’s identity. I don’t want to go back, I don’t want to take my heart back, no matter how good looking it is now, shiny, clean and full of life.
I have given my heart to Jesus and I will only share it to the man He will entrust it to.  I know there will be many times I will struggle and try to get it and give it to just anybody who would satisfy what I want right now. But I also know that a heart who has been fully saturated with His love would no longer thrive in a cheap temporary kind of love. Jesus has locked my heart to be completely His to ensure that the only one can pry it open is someone who knows Him as well. I would never regret the times:
A.   God has broken my heart because im trying to fit it from someone of the worlds
B.   God did not answer my prayers because it is not His will
C.    God has to discipline to teach me who’s the Boss
D.   God has rescued me from temptations over and over again
Masakit, mahirap, hindi ka laging masaya, kaya totoo nga ang sabi nila
“Ang true love ay para sa matatapang na tao lamang.” (My Amnesia Girl)
Everyday is a decision to obey, to give in, to waive my rights to my definition of happiness, to give up the right to choose what I want. By God’s grace this is the price I choose to pay for the sake of an everlasting love, no richest man can give me in his entire lifetime.
Ladies, the man that exceeded everything you can hope for or imagine is not a fairy tale, He is alive. Magmumukhang gusgusin si Thor kung ico-compare mo sila. He came down here on earth hindi lang para isave ang isang Lois Lane, but He choose to be fully human (not an alien, nor a demi-god) to save you-oo ikaw na sa mga mata mo at ng ibang tao feeling mo undeserving ng isan tunay na Prince Charming. 

Hindi lang buhay nya ang ibibigay nya sayo, not just the the moon, the sun and stars but a life that is out of this world literally and beyond time. The man who literally caught the grenade, jump in front of the train to pay for all the sins we have committed and continues to commit. He’s name is Jesus, are you willing to surrender your heart to Him?

Laida Magtalas Version 2.0

Wiser, Braver.  Stronger, Fiercer
Who would not want to be any of those? Lahat tayo gusto ng better version of ourselves, a makeover, naniniwala tayo na ang pagbabago kesehodang kulay lang ito ng buhok, longer eyelashes or bagong hairstyle ay magdudulot ng bagong buhay.

Pero pinakatotoo ito sa mga taong nasaktan na, na-friendzone, nabigo, nakipaghiwalay, na-reject, iniwan. Me mga taong binabago ang kanilang sarili because they feel they are the main reason why the relationship failed, others do it for revenge but the most common thing is fear of getting hurt again. Every woman would do all she can in her power never to be hurt again.

Gaano kasakit ang masaktan?
Naaalala ko parati si Bella sa tanong na ito nung panahong iniwan sya ni Edward, yung scene na naka-upo lang sya, nakaharap sa bintana, tulala at depressed having lumilipas ang maraming buwan. I remember maraming nagsabi nun na exagg daw yung scene na yun, hindi naman nangyayari sa tunay na buhay, sa isip-isip ko lang wala pa syang sobrang nabroken heart na kaibigan.

No woman would ever want to catch herself ever again:
a.crying until she falls asleep then waking up to tears again
b.  narrating the never ending story kung ilang beses syang naloko ng dilat ang kanyang mga mata at wala naming kapansanan sa pandinig
c.   how much of a fool she has been wearing her hearts on her sleeves while the world watch her being rejected
d.   fighting for a relationship na in the end ay one-sided pala
Walang babae ang hindi willing mag-imbento ng selective amnesia pills sa panahong ganito. Pagbabago ang sigaw ng lahat, itapon ang mga walang kwentang emotions, maging strong hanggang magka-pusong bato, pag-aralan ang poker face, at huwag na huwag ng magpapaloko ano mang mangyari, piliin ang mga taong pagkakatiwalaan kung gusto pang matutong huminga sa mundo.

Yun lang ba talaga ang sagot? Me iba pa bang alternative?
Tao ba ang taong walang emosyon? Darating ba ang panahon na walang taong makakasakit sa tin habambuhay? Hindi naman di ba? Since hindi mangyayari yun, I have learned to redefine certain vocabularies in my life.
Since trust is the foundation of love, and there can be no trust without vulnerability, I CHOOSE to see vulnerability as this:

VULNERABILITY -the willingness to bring your defenses down in order to build relationships, trusting the ultimate truth that only God can truly protect and shield your soul.
EMOTIONAL STRENGHT – accepting your God given design and daily holding on to the truth of your indelible identity (made in the image and likeness of God)

Yes women should be wiser and braver but we should not achieve that INDEPENDENTLY. Rather choose the better path of seeing with open eyes all our insecurities and fear and declaring surrender to God and be completely dependent on his grace. Lest we think we can live a life based only on our own determination and discipline.

Dear Ladies, our emotions are part of God’s design for us its not a liability, choosing to have toxic emotions, and daily posting emotion vomit on our status, that’s on us already.

I love how Paul teaches us how to have a version2.0
To put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. Ephesians 4:22-24

He says put off the old version, throw it out, die to it. Die to your depression, don’t attend your self-pity parties and reject rejection!

How? By renewing our minds (not emotions) through the power of the Holy Spirit (not our discipline or determination). Hindi tayo emotion na tinubuan ng babae, we are women with emotions and minds as well but wait there’s more, we have the Holy Spirit, God Himself  living inside of us, we have no excuse not to have what it takes to change.

And to put on the new self, our brand new identity=>created in the image of God. Girl move-on, move on din. Kaya mo yan! We believe in you!

Dear ladies, you already have it in you the best version of yourself, from the very beginning you are made in the image and likeness of God, live out that truth daily, fight for it, cling on to God and submit yourself fully in Him, that’s the only way to fully live.

Let me be a woman

Posted by Babes on Feb 6, ’07 11:09 PM via Multiply

Dedicated my leadership group
Especially For Liane, Emil, Mayleen, tina and Ria

Let me laugh out loud even at the silliest joke
without fear of being laughed at;
Let me enjoy the rain, the rainbow and the sunshine
 without being mocked;
Let me play with animals and hug my worn out stuffed toys;
Let me sing of songs I love beyond the comfort of my bathroom;
Let me indulge in chocolates, cakes and ice cream,
without fear of getting fat;
Let me wear loose clothes and running shoes;
Let me dream and dream some more;
Let me play in the mud;
Let me have a disheveled hair from time to time;
Let me be weak, allow me room to cry;
Let me try out different hairstyles;
Let me wear the latest style;
Let me enjoy my pearls and diamond;
Let me be moody from time to time;
Let me change my mind;
Let me feel protected at night and in the crowd;
Let me feel that I can fully trust;
Let me know that I have someone to depend on to;
Let me have innocence;
Let me follow more than lead;
Let me be a support and not the stand;
Let me speak out what’s on my mind;
Let me be the one being rescued, not the mighty warrior;
Let me be sweet more than being strong;
Let me be a child, a daughter, a sister, a wife;
Let me write poems;